Hi guys, it's 4.12 in the morning I'm sleepy, but somehow I'm still awake. I think i was restraint myself too much in so many aspect. There are a lot of things I want to do, but somehow I always find an excuse to not to do it. Like blogging, I love to write, but it takes me a really long time to start blogging, and even when I already start, I'm still trying to find an excuse to stop it. Like there are nobody who reads it, I mean who cares. I start this for self improvement, and to keep my sanity in check so I don't have to waste my money for some therapist.
It's not just blogging, gaming, I know I made the right choice not to buy Playstation Vita until it's price drop, I'm not buying the true blue jailbreak dongle. It's good restraint exercise because the excuse is logical, smart. But something like dancing, I almost drop myself out from the campus competition which I talk about from earlier post. Maybe I'm not pro, but I'm not bad either, I have to have self confidence (oh my, confidence, my weakness). Music, I want to play piano so bad, I know it's complicated because my boarding is not that fancy. I can ask my parents to send the keyboard, but hey we're talking about my parents now hahaha, it'll be hard. I really want to play violin. It's not so expensive, why can't I buy it myself? Then do some self learning? Too many doubt in my heart I hate it.
Gadget too. I'm a tech freak, I'm not that good at it, but I'm sure my knowledge is beyond standard. I want to buy an iPad 2 (because I think iPad 3 or 4 is too exquisite), again the excuse is lame, like I have to save money. For what actually I save my money if not for what I love to do.
The point is I have so many doubt, negative feelings, shyness, sometimes it's good, but the negative side dominates the pie chart. That's why I always get ignored, I communicate what I want, but I don't try enough to get what I want. I said I want to watch a movie with them, but that's it, I'm hoping they have enough sympathy they'll offer it. Truth was, my image is not that sympathetic. I have quite strong image in fact, that's why maybe if I not utter my feelings loud, they will think I'm not serious, and the fact that I'm don't have popularity enough to gain some charisma, or that obeyme effect, or impact, or whatever will not help me to achieve what I want. The problem is... I have to train myself so I have that confidence and attitude. O God please help me so I can have those charisma or aura or whatever. I'll try, at least I realize it, it's a good one step.
For the closing, I want to say I'm quite surprised that 3 people visit my blog not for GaIn, but for a post about my life? That's very flattering indeed, this is like building a bit of my self esteem (or maybe it's just luck hahaha). I won't restraint myself, I maybe post 3 topic in a day and I don't care (I want to do another review btw). I also change the blog a little and I'm happy about it and nobody would make me doubt my choice hahaha. (one step at a time ^^)
Today quote is my selfmake
"Don't think too much. Sometimes logic will crush you, you won't achieve anything in life."
Sabtu, 10 November 2012
Somebody kill me please!!!
So there's a food festival in my campus. That's not the point in this post. First thing I'm so pissed with my faculty. The building is like a remain of world war II, the facility is suck, the administration people is full of b*tch, the worst thing is the rules are so wishy washy it change whenever they like to. We already had a deal that saturday is a holiday (there used to be a class), but in change, we prolonged the active learning time, from 13.00 to 15.30. Here's the suck thing, they always put an extra lesson in saturday, sometimes it's so many we go home at 13.00, and an empty class in the middle of active time is not sound very appealing either. I overslept (as usual) not really severe, but I was so pissed at everything I skip the other classes.
I sleep until it was almost 14.00, and I realized I have to update my blog, but there was no interesting topic I want to talk about, and I was still exhausted from doing a review yesterday, and there are no people who actually read it, I upload a video, I upload the album, I thought with a review there will be an major increase in visitor, but boy I was wrong. It makes me think that maybe just maybe, my problem, which I think is uninteresting and unimportant is in fact interesting and important, because it got viewed. I'm not sure with my theory, let this post answer my question.
Oh yeah, food festival. I also realized that despite my popularity (it's not much, but enough), people ignore me, forget about me, they don't hear what I said, I feel alone, socially discarded, bla bla bla. Like my friend talk about watching skyfall together, I was in front of them, I said I want to join them, but suddenly they all dissapeared and I am pretty where are they going to. I'm quite close to them, why didn't they invite, why didn't they let me join, I'M PPPPIIIISSSSSEEEEEDD OOOFFFFF. And there are still other event that just drop my self esteem to the lowest ground. I went home, wandering around aimlessly, hoping some bus or truck hit me I died. As friends I try to be kind, sympathetic, understanding, but that still doesn't enough for my friend to remember me, I feel so crushed now I don't know what to do.
Writing is actually a good exercise for me, my write become more managed and clean. It does help my sanity a little, but I still want to die fortunately. Tomorrow is holiday, I don't have the mood for a dance practice, or look after my friend who practice for closing event, but yeahhh... Maybe I will write a simple review tomorrow I still don't know. It feels good actually to convey our feelings, since a blog without a visitor won't judge (hahaha). There are no beautiful quotes today so bye bye...
P.S. The food festival and the accoustic event today was a total failure :P
I do some editing and QC (quality control) and in fact my writing is still a mess it's still
neither managed nor clean ._.
I sleep until it was almost 14.00, and I realized I have to update my blog, but there was no interesting topic I want to talk about, and I was still exhausted from doing a review yesterday, and there are no people who actually read it, I upload a video, I upload the album, I thought with a review there will be an major increase in visitor, but boy I was wrong. It makes me think that maybe just maybe, my problem, which I think is uninteresting and unimportant is in fact interesting and important, because it got viewed. I'm not sure with my theory, let this post answer my question.
Oh yeah, food festival. I also realized that despite my popularity (it's not much, but enough), people ignore me, forget about me, they don't hear what I said, I feel alone, socially discarded, bla bla bla. Like my friend talk about watching skyfall together, I was in front of them, I said I want to join them, but suddenly they all dissapeared and I am pretty where are they going to. I'm quite close to them, why didn't they invite, why didn't they let me join, I'M PPPPIIIISSSSSEEEEEDD OOOFFFFF. And there are still other event that just drop my self esteem to the lowest ground. I went home, wandering around aimlessly, hoping some bus or truck hit me I died. As friends I try to be kind, sympathetic, understanding, but that still doesn't enough for my friend to remember me, I feel so crushed now I don't know what to do.
Writing is actually a good exercise for me, my write become more managed and clean. It does help my sanity a little, but I still want to die fortunately. Tomorrow is holiday, I don't have the mood for a dance practice, or look after my friend who practice for closing event, but yeahhh... Maybe I will write a simple review tomorrow I still don't know. It feels good actually to convey our feelings, since a blog without a visitor won't judge (hahaha). There are no beautiful quotes today so bye bye...
P.S. The food festival and the accoustic event today was a total failure :P
I do some editing and QC (quality control) and in fact my writing is still a mess it's still
neither managed nor clean ._.
Jumat, 09 November 2012
GaIn (가인) Talk About S [Review]
*Intro
Yeahhh, so this is my first review and I decided to do a korean album. And, I regret it a little bit. Because there's so much to do, like uploading both the MV and the album, search for the album picture, and with my internet connection? It means intense waiting. But I still think this is the perfect day to write a review, my day wasn't really a blast and the fact my dance practice has been cancelled did not help. And the gross thing is I have to touch a few white rat for my farmacology experiment (ewh gross). Enough with my (always) sad story, here's the review.
*Warning this review only represent my opinion only, feel free to tell yours
"Brown Eyed Girls" the group that everyone and every fanclub respect, be it Sone, Blackjack, Wonderfuls. BEG isn't just a sunbae filled with adult members, they also possess talent beyond average girl group in terms of musicality, I always think they are the female version of Big Bang (2ne1 still needs to learn) they produce, compose, and write their lyrics and rap part. That's why a very good girl group attempt in music feel very small in front of BEG's material.
Enough with the superiority, today review is BEG's youngest solo act Son Ga In which is Talk About S.
1. Tinkerbell (팅커벨)
From the first time I hear this track, I always think this song is a slightly different version of DJ Clazzi's work. A not so succesful try if I may add. It features unique choice of instrument and confusing ryhtm but it's catchy, cool, there's a little mess that's why I said a not so succesful DJ Clazzi, but the Mexican feel really won me over :P. But, despite my comment I still like it, the lyric is creative like a grown up IU despite the childish lyrics, the meaning is so mature. To conclude Tinkerbell is standard not really special, but my bias mind say I really love it.
2. 그녀를 만나
This kind of song really suit my taste, but ahem to be objective for Brown Eyed Girls standard it's not really special, even the difficulty of the song is not special, but once again every GaIn's material no matter how standard that is still better than any girl group can produce. To add the lyric is also uninspiring, so this is to be honest worse than tinkerbell, but GaIn really nailed this pitch unlike Bloom where she (I think) strained her voice to the highest note. Singing wise this is really good, but for strange person like me, I like strange Tinkerbell more.
3. Bloom (피어나)
So this is the main song, and one word for me to describe it, amazing. I really love the song, the lyrics, oh, and since there's an MV I will also review the MV. For me the MV is so brave and fierce, it has gender equality message, GaIn rock the blonde hair, aahhhh I love it. The lyrics, the music, even GaIn nasally high voice can't disturb me to continue hear it. For me this is the perfect track, it's catchy, different, and 'controversial' hahaha. To conclude, if you can bear GaIn's nasal high pitch, this track is a winner.
4. 시선 feat. Yoon Jong Shin (윤종신)
First, I didn't get the meaning of the lyric, which means I can't review the lyrics. I use google translate, but I don't think it's accurate so... yeah. Honestly, I don't really like it, it's not my taste, but I have to say that it's sounds so ethereal it's good. Both GaIn's voice and Yoon Jong Shin's voice suit each other they make a perfect duet, this is really like Brown Eyed Girls old material which is a compliment by the way. To conclude it, it's a good track, but not my taste sorry...
5. Catch Me if You Can
So this is the last track of the EP, and usually the last track is be it eastern or western singers where they belt their voice to the highest note they can reach. Strangely GaIn did not use the same formula, instead she chose a track that I find not very flattering. The lyric is fine, the music kinda like 그녀를 만나 which is not bad, but the singing oh the singing. She sound like a child, and sound so annoyingly nasal (not the good nasal in Bloom). Well, since I don't like it and it's a bad track I don't want to write it much (hahaha). It's the weakest song from this album I assure you.
To conclude I have to admit this is not so better, Step 2/4 was more superior. But it is still good, it pleases our ears and our eyes, and this album of course not a stupid material and it's really a worth if you want to check it. 그녀를 만나, Bloom, and 시선 is the best track. Tinkerbell is quite great, and Catch Me if You Can is just awful. Okay that's all, this is my first review, of course it's not perfect, but hey I'm trying.
Download the EP
Talk About S (4shared)
Yeahhh, so this is my first review and I decided to do a korean album. And, I regret it a little bit. Because there's so much to do, like uploading both the MV and the album, search for the album picture, and with my internet connection? It means intense waiting. But I still think this is the perfect day to write a review, my day wasn't really a blast and the fact my dance practice has been cancelled did not help. And the gross thing is I have to touch a few white rat for my farmacology experiment (ewh gross). Enough with my (always) sad story, here's the review.
*Warning this review only represent my opinion only, feel free to tell yours
"Brown Eyed Girls" the group that everyone and every fanclub respect, be it Sone, Blackjack, Wonderfuls. BEG isn't just a sunbae filled with adult members, they also possess talent beyond average girl group in terms of musicality, I always think they are the female version of Big Bang (2ne1 still needs to learn) they produce, compose, and write their lyrics and rap part. That's why a very good girl group attempt in music feel very small in front of BEG's material.
Enough with the superiority, today review is BEG's youngest solo act Son Ga In which is Talk About S.
1. Tinkerbell (팅커벨)
2. 그녀를 만나
This kind of song really suit my taste, but ahem to be objective for Brown Eyed Girls standard it's not really special, even the difficulty of the song is not special, but once again every GaIn's material no matter how standard that is still better than any girl group can produce. To add the lyric is also uninspiring, so this is to be honest worse than tinkerbell, but GaIn really nailed this pitch unlike Bloom where she (I think) strained her voice to the highest note. Singing wise this is really good, but for strange person like me, I like strange Tinkerbell more.
3. Bloom (피어나)
4. 시선 feat. Yoon Jong Shin (윤종신)
First, I didn't get the meaning of the lyric, which means I can't review the lyrics. I use google translate, but I don't think it's accurate so... yeah. Honestly, I don't really like it, it's not my taste, but I have to say that it's sounds so ethereal it's good. Both GaIn's voice and Yoon Jong Shin's voice suit each other they make a perfect duet, this is really like Brown Eyed Girls old material which is a compliment by the way. To conclude it, it's a good track, but not my taste sorry...
5. Catch Me if You Can
So this is the last track of the EP, and usually the last track is be it eastern or western singers where they belt their voice to the highest note they can reach. Strangely GaIn did not use the same formula, instead she chose a track that I find not very flattering. The lyric is fine, the music kinda like 그녀를 만나 which is not bad, but the singing oh the singing. She sound like a child, and sound so annoyingly nasal (not the good nasal in Bloom). Well, since I don't like it and it's a bad track I don't want to write it much (hahaha). It's the weakest song from this album I assure you.
To conclude I have to admit this is not so better, Step 2/4 was more superior. But it is still good, it pleases our ears and our eyes, and this album of course not a stupid material and it's really a worth if you want to check it. 그녀를 만나, Bloom, and 시선 is the best track. Tinkerbell is quite great, and Catch Me if You Can is just awful. Okay that's all, this is my first review, of course it's not perfect, but hey I'm trying.
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Talk About S (4shared)
Kamis, 08 November 2012
My Friend Flowrain
Heyyyy, today I write two posts. I hope that's healthy. So according to my previous post (pun intended), I was so depressed I hope the angel of death swing his giant sickle to cut my life. I have a friend, her nickname flowrain, I call her oyen (you can vomit if you want), she's like the most mature, wise girls I've ever met, she's so kind, and sensitive, and more. I just convey all my feelings, why I feel so depressed mostly It's my comment about my parents (huh parents ._.)
I feel more energized, doesn't mean I feel better, but more energized. I'm gonna see tomorrow with clearer mind and try to be more positive, since I really lack that kind of attitude. I'm gonna start my diet too, because I have to be perfect when dancing for the closing of my faculty event, and yes I do dance. In fact the other 4 guy is really hot, hehehehe >.<
Starting tomorrow I'm gonna working out, diet, and be more positive, and try to be more easygoing, I'm really lucky for someone as clumsy, and nerdy like me, I'm quite famous, and have so many friends. Once again thank you florent.
And my personal quote today is,
"If you have a really really really kind friend, do not let them go. Hold them tight, sacrifice for them. Cuz, they'll do more for you."
So Flowrain, and one of the dance guy is really nice friend I'll hold them tight.
I know it's been really gloomy, I'm planning to do a review for next post. Games, or South Korean music album maybe, I really want to review Resident Evil 6, but I haven't play it, too bad. Oh and I customize my blog a little, I know it's not good, but hey I try.
P.S. I used her real name before, but I'm scared of copyright or use a property without the person's permission so I change her name ._.
I feel more energized, doesn't mean I feel better, but more energized. I'm gonna see tomorrow with clearer mind and try to be more positive, since I really lack that kind of attitude. I'm gonna start my diet too, because I have to be perfect when dancing for the closing of my faculty event, and yes I do dance. In fact the other 4 guy is really hot, hehehehe >.<
Starting tomorrow I'm gonna working out, diet, and be more positive, and try to be more easygoing, I'm really lucky for someone as clumsy, and nerdy like me, I'm quite famous, and have so many friends. Once again thank you florent.
And my personal quote today is,
"If you have a really really really kind friend, do not let them go. Hold them tight, sacrifice for them. Cuz, they'll do more for you."
So Flowrain, and one of the dance guy is really nice friend I'll hold them tight.
I know it's been really gloomy, I'm planning to do a review for next post. Games, or South Korean music album maybe, I really want to review Resident Evil 6, but I haven't play it, too bad. Oh and I customize my blog a little, I know it's not good, but hey I try.
P.S. I used her real name before, but I'm scared of copyright or use a property without the person's permission so I change her name ._.
I almost forgot to add a title ._.
So there're 6 people who saw my blog, that's strange, I don't know if they read it until the end, but whatever. At least, I'm not just talking (or writing) to the moon, heheh...Since there are (actually) somebody who saw my blog I think I need to getting used to this blog system, I still don't know how to customize it, but I will I promise.
So the main reason why I write today because I feel like a junk. I was late for class, and the worst was I (automatically) skip salah fajr, yes that time I feel it would be better if suddenly I got a heart attack and died. In my mind, the idea of sleeping forever suddenly became so beautiful I couldn't resist it. But, why oh why, suicide is a big BIG sin, if it's not a sin, or if I have no religion (like those people on South Korea) I know I.......
Hahah, it's rather gloomy, so I did not commit suicide (of course, I'm writing here). So I just coil at my bed (coil? I search it at google translate, I don't know if it's right or wrong feel free to correct me (if there really are someone who actually read this)). Where was I??? Oh coil, so I stayed at my bed until afternoon, I skip two classes and a very important *practicum
*Practicum, I know I choose the wrong word, but I can't find the touchmyheart word. So it's like an experiment class (I have to watch Juno to describe it accurately (It's a good film (Jennifer Garner is so beautiful (so is Ellen Page)))
It's a parasite experiment to be more precise, not really an experiment we just saw at the microscope the morfology of those nasty, slimy, ewwwwhhh so gross. I know it's important, but we can skip it one time only, but of course I have to explain why I skip it to my lecturer. And I can't just say I want to die badly that day. I took a bath, haven't eat or drink anything today, it's 15.26, I better suit myself up like Barney Stinson always said heheh. No beautiful quotes today, I will try to customize my blog after I publish this entry. Oh, and I still have to train for my dance performance. We'll talk about it later.
So the main reason why I write today because I feel like a junk. I was late for class, and the worst was I (automatically) skip salah fajr, yes that time I feel it would be better if suddenly I got a heart attack and died. In my mind, the idea of sleeping forever suddenly became so beautiful I couldn't resist it. But, why oh why, suicide is a big BIG sin, if it's not a sin, or if I have no religion (like those people on South Korea) I know I.......
Hahah, it's rather gloomy, so I did not commit suicide (of course, I'm writing here). So I just coil at my bed (coil? I search it at google translate, I don't know if it's right or wrong feel free to correct me (if there really are someone who actually read this)). Where was I??? Oh coil, so I stayed at my bed until afternoon, I skip two classes and a very important *practicum
*Practicum, I know I choose the wrong word, but I can't find the touchmyheart word. So it's like an experiment class (I have to watch Juno to describe it accurately (It's a good film (Jennifer Garner is so beautiful (so is Ellen Page)))
It's a parasite experiment to be more precise, not really an experiment we just saw at the microscope the morfology of those nasty, slimy, ewwwwhhh so gross. I know it's important, but we can skip it one time only, but of course I have to explain why I skip it to my lecturer. And I can't just say I want to die badly that day. I took a bath, haven't eat or drink anything today, it's 15.26, I better suit myself up like Barney Stinson always said heheh. No beautiful quotes today, I will try to customize my blog after I publish this entry. Oh, and I still have to train for my dance performance. We'll talk about it later.
Rabu, 07 November 2012
First Post Yeayyy?!
So guys, this is my first post (who the hell am I talking to anyway). I'm not really good at talking and writing although I clearly have the picture in my tiny little mind (if I'm so bad at it, why the hell am I making a blog anyway???). Oh and btw, I'm gonna do a lot of this thing, I mean make a comment of what I do, so you guys please bear with it (who the hell am I talking to anyway(again)).
Okay enough for the intro, so what the f*ck am I gonna write in this blog. Basically everything I wanna write, it could be a review of music, movie, series, books, or games oh and I do love games by the way. If it's not a review I will make an essay how I love those things but I'll bet that it won't be objective (my English is bad). Or maybe just my diary, like meeting a hot guy, do some crazy things, make some comments on an unimportant things. So I will write everything I want to write, hoping my English is getting better hahah.
Oh and the most important thing is, I need someone/things to just convey all my feelings without judging. I have some dark secrets that I can't tell, but keeping it to myself just making me insane. So to be honest, this is the very reason I start a blog (a bad blog, but I will repair it I promise).
Now here's the fun part (not so fun I guess, hey, but it's really fun for me). I'm not gonna tell you my identity not even a tiny bit, not even my nationality, or my gender, fun right???
Oh but I'm not gonna prevent myself to write something that might be describe a little bit of my identity (Like I did on paragraph two). I'm not gonna limit my journalism soul just to close my identity like a tight underwear hahah.
It's like 2.30 in the morning, I have said (or write) what I want to say (or write), I'm not sleepy but I must try it at least. It's a bad first post, but I'm glad at least I start it. So thank you.
I had read it somewhere, a beautiful quote. It said,
"The hardest part to achieve a dream is to find the courage to do it on the first time."
I know it's not exactly like that but whatever, so I had said too much let's end this (Oh my goat my english needs a repair).
Okay enough for the intro, so what the f*ck am I gonna write in this blog. Basically everything I wanna write, it could be a review of music, movie, series, books, or games oh and I do love games by the way. If it's not a review I will make an essay how I love those things but I'll bet that it won't be objective (my English is bad). Or maybe just my diary, like meeting a hot guy, do some crazy things, make some comments on an unimportant things. So I will write everything I want to write, hoping my English is getting better hahah.
Oh and the most important thing is, I need someone/things to just convey all my feelings without judging. I have some dark secrets that I can't tell, but keeping it to myself just making me insane. So to be honest, this is the very reason I start a blog (a bad blog, but I will repair it I promise).
Now here's the fun part (not so fun I guess, hey, but it's really fun for me). I'm not gonna tell you my identity not even a tiny bit, not even my nationality, or my gender, fun right???
Oh but I'm not gonna prevent myself to write something that might be describe a little bit of my identity (Like I did on paragraph two). I'm not gonna limit my journalism soul just to close my identity like a tight underwear hahah.
It's like 2.30 in the morning, I have said (or write) what I want to say (or write), I'm not sleepy but I must try it at least. It's a bad first post, but I'm glad at least I start it. So thank you.
I had read it somewhere, a beautiful quote. It said,
"The hardest part to achieve a dream is to find the courage to do it on the first time."
I know it's not exactly like that but whatever, so I had said too much let's end this (Oh my goat my english needs a repair).
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