Somebody kill me please!!!

So there's a food festival in my campus. That's not the point in this post. First thing I'm so pissed with my faculty. The building is like a remain of world war II, the facility is suck, the administration people is full of b*tch, the worst thing is the rules are so wishy washy it change whenever they like to. We already had a deal that saturday is a holiday (there used to be a class), but in change, we prolonged the active learning time, from 13.00 to 15.30. Here's the suck thing, they always put an extra lesson in saturday, sometimes it's so many we go home at 13.00, and an empty class in the middle of active time is not sound very appealing either. I overslept (as usual) not really severe, but I was so pissed at everything I skip the other classes.

I sleep until it was almost 14.00, and I realized I have to update my blog, but there was no interesting topic I want to talk about, and I was still exhausted from doing a review yesterday, and there are no people who actually read it, I upload a video, I upload the album, I thought with a review there will be an major increase in visitor, but boy I was wrong. It makes me think that maybe just maybe, my problem, which I think is uninteresting and unimportant is in fact interesting and important, because it got viewed. I'm not sure with my theory, let this post answer my question.

Oh yeah, food festival. I also realized that despite my popularity (it's not much, but enough), people ignore me, forget about me, they don't hear what I said, I feel alone, socially discarded, bla bla bla. Like my friend talk about watching skyfall together, I was in front of them, I said I want to join them, but suddenly they all dissapeared and I am pretty where are they going to. I'm quite close to them, why didn't they invite, why didn't they let me join, I'M PPPPIIIISSSSSEEEEEDD OOOFFFFF. And there are still other event that just drop my self esteem to the lowest ground. I went home, wandering around aimlessly, hoping some bus or truck hit me I died. As friends I try to be kind, sympathetic, understanding, but that still doesn't enough for my friend to remember me, I feel so crushed now I don't know what to do.

Writing is actually a good exercise for me, my write become more managed  and clean. It does help my sanity a little, but I still want to die fortunately. Tomorrow is holiday, I don't have the mood for a dance practice, or look after my friend who practice for closing event, but yeahhh... Maybe I will write a simple review tomorrow I still don't know. It feels good actually to convey our feelings, since a blog without a visitor won't judge (hahaha). There are no beautiful quotes today so bye bye...

P.S. The food festival and the accoustic event today was a total failure :P
       I do some editing and QC (quality control) and in fact my writing is still a mess it's still      
       neither managed nor clean ._.